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Parenting Frustration: I Tried and I am Fvck*n’ Tired!

WARNING. Frustration Level: 97/100 | Language: Not So Good | Sanity: Below Normal | Post Length: LOOOOONG READ


I woke up to a cold, beautiful Tuesday morning and thought to myself, “What a lovely day!”, with a little smile on my face. My children were still asleep and I had a little time for myself. It was so relaxing to watch them sleep, probably dreaming of some of our fun family moments. Ooooh, I love this life! 🙂

Two hours later, I just found myself SCREAMING at my kids!

Fvck. What did just happen?

I just SCREAMED at my kids! LIKE FOR REAL!!! I was so mad I can’t even begin to grasp what just happened. I lost it. I fvck*n lost all of it. I thought I was just a crazy mom. Now, I realized that I am a crazy-screaming-yelling-no-clue-tired-frustrated-monster mom! I started the day with a great mood but it suddenly turned sour. And I didn’t just scream at them but I also slammed the computer mouse while I was trying to work on something online.

WTH was wrong with me?!!

Please, if you wanna judge me – just keep it to yourself.

Here’s the truth.

I love my children. I freakin’ love them so much even when they drive me crazy. I love being a parent. I love being their mom. I love this roller-coaster parenting journey! I love everything about my little family. I love all the ups and downs, the beautiful and ugly moments, the stinky laundry and dirty dishes, the mess and the silliness, the proud milestones and embarrassing meltdowns, the cool artworks and the little attitude, the genuine kindness and  sarcasm, the humor and heartwarming sweetness, the little giggles and boisterous laughter. Everything that’s part of Family Life & Parenthood – I FVCK*N LOVE THEM ALL!

BUT I also hate them, at times. Like today when I raised my voice at my kids and continually ignored them when they said sorry.

It just gets so overwhelming and exhausting sometimes. With little or no warning at all, my parenting frustrations quickly rise up to an unbelievable level and I explode! The pressures of being a parent are so real – I feel like my mind is rushing to different places at high speeds. Sometimes, all I wanna do is lock up and cry. For real!

But when I think hard about it, I can’t find a real, “big deal” issue about my children or with our situation. It seems like all of these frustrations were slowly built from tiny nuances – so small that they don’t even matter at all, or not that much. Not until they continue to pile up, one over the other.

Do you know the little annoying things that I’m talking about?

I don’t know where to start but like my kids, I have hundreds of “WHY” questions.

Why do kids can’t understand the value of time?
Why do they seem so relaxed when we are trying to hurry and catch up something?
Why can’t they just eat what’s on the table and not be so picky?
Why can’t they eat properly and not play when eating?
Why can’t they just look for their missing shoe without telling me it’s not there. – wherever “there” means.
Why can’t they just stop fighting over small stuff?
Why can’t they just keep their toys after playing without me reminding them over and over again?
Why can’t they put on their clothes immediately after a bath?
Why can’t they just stop watching Youtube when I tell them the first time?
Heck, why can’t they just do what I tell them to do, right away?

Before you laugh at my ridiculous sentiments. I know what you’re thinking. I know I am being such a b*tch complaining about these little things – when they’re nothing worthy to complain at all. I know I should not sweat the small stuff. I know there are more important things that I should focus instead of ranting like a child here on my “mommy blog” – which is IRONIC. I know that I should prioritize what matters most and that I should be grateful for all the good (and bad) things.

I know I should cherish the moments and enjoy the experience. I know I should look at the bright side because time flies and they will grow up fast. I know these “WHY” questions all boil down to how I discipline and teach my kids. I know I just have to be more patient because they are just young kids and I am the adult who should know better. I know that these “issues” are nothing compared to the real deal when they grow up, especially in the teenage years. I know I shouldn’t be too hard on myself, especially when these are just little bumps. Yeah, I know.

I absolutely know ALL of that. That’s what everybody tells me. I already read those from parenting books and heard those parenting wisdom from experts. I even gave my own similar parenting advice to some too.

But please, hear me out.

Can I just stop trying to be a good mom for a second? Can’t I just be a b*tchy mom and rant all I want?

Why is raising kids so damn hard? I thought I was just supposed to feed, bath, and dress them and they’re all set. What is this “good parenting” they call? Are there parenting manuals out there that I’m missing out?

Why does it seem like every other parent gets it? They look so perfect, I don’t understand why. Am I the only one who can’t get my parenting sh*t together?

Wait. I think the real question is.. WHY is everybody keeping their OWN parenting frustrations and act so good at being a parent? WHY???

Are you telling me that I should just try and try harder?

Know what? I did. Yes, I tried. I tried so damn hard! But guess what? I am fvck*n tired.

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Hey! Are you a frustrated parent too? Be a b*tch sometimes and rant your frustrations in the comments below! I won’t judge, I promise! 😉

Don’t forget to share this post with your fellow frustrated parents to let them know they aren’t alone. Better yet, share this with the “Perfect Parents” out there who seem to get it all together. We might learn a thing or two from them. 😉

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19 Comments

  • Reply Jhanis

    Totally get you! Love my kids but there are days when I wanna sell them on eBay! Breathe mama. Just breathe. 😉

    August 29, 2017 at 6:20 pm
    • Reply Rose Angelie

      HAHA! Item description: NO scratches, very fine condition but may not work at times. RFS: I need my single life back! Price negotiable. Buy 1, Take ALL. See to appreciate! LMAO

      August 29, 2017 at 6:40 pm
  • Reply Kat

    I feel you sis!! Although I only have one and love her very much, sometimes I just want her to be 25 years old and in her own world. Then I’ll be frustrated that she DOESN’T have time to check in and spend time with me.

    August 29, 2017 at 8:36 pm
    • Reply Rose Angelie

      Sooo true! I get sad when I think that they’re growing up and will be on their own someday soon. Funny how this parenthood journey is! 🙂

      August 29, 2017 at 9:52 pm
  • Reply Hannah Iway

    So true, this happened to me last sunday, family day of my daughter’s school, she’s been practicing their dance for days and all of a sudden she didn’t want to dance wearing her shoes!!!! Watching my daughter perform on stage wearing a pair of worn out sandals (hindi bagay sa costume) was the last thing on my mind for that day but what can I do?? Haist! Sometimes, their “kaartehan” are just too much for us moms to handle!

    August 29, 2017 at 10:30 pm
    • Reply Rose Angelie

      Hahaha Makes me think of my daughter with her sudden mood swings sometimes. Speaking of, they will have their school dance presentation this Thursday for Buwan ng Wika and so fingers-crossed walang “kaartehan” na mangyayari. LMAO!

      August 30, 2017 at 12:53 am
  • Reply Yen (Glossycover.com)

    Omg. I’m right there with you! Sometimes it’s the little things that tick me off. Like, they are 12 and 14 and I ask “Did you brush your teeth yet?” And of course, they haven’t (it’s already 10:30 am). WTF? I have to remind them to do this simple morning ritual and one of them is headed to high school? And then I find myself inwardly screaming my lungs off.

    August 30, 2017 at 12:46 am
    • Reply Rose Angelie

      OMG. I dread these days coming. LOL Good luck to us, mamas! 😉

      August 30, 2017 at 12:54 am
  • Reply Isabel Leong

    Might not be a parent now but I feel you. Sometimes it’s just hard and inevitable, isn’t it. You might get frustrated at children but then again you just have to understand that they’re still growing and they’re learning each day. Hope the days get much better for you always 🙂

    August 30, 2017 at 1:01 am
    • Reply Rose Angelie

      Thank you, Isabel. Our days are mostly amazing, though some moments are pretty crappy. But that’s all part of the beauty, right? 😉

      August 30, 2017 at 1:04 am
  • Reply Emma Dawn

    #momlife is a hard life that’s forsure! My son milo is teething right now and I totally agree with the woman who said sell on ebay! Maybe we can partner up and get a 2 for 1 sale going on. Even though he drives me crazy sometimes i love him so so so much.

    August 30, 2017 at 1:43 am
    • Reply Rose Angelie

      Hahaha Highest bidder wins? LOL Amazing how we still get a good laugh at all the frustrations! 🙂

      August 30, 2017 at 1:45 am
  • Reply Isabelle

    Haha this is hilarious! I’m a new mom as well and although I only have a baby…I can already feel the frustrations sometimes 😉 Seems like I have plenty to look forward to LOL

    August 30, 2017 at 9:12 am
    • Reply Rose Angelie

      Prepare when those days come! Haha 😉 Thanks for the visit, Isabelle!

      August 30, 2017 at 12:33 pm
  • Reply Rafi Nandi

    Answer for all your questions, they are kids! Their brain is still small and under constant development in a different level. Like, not all kids can be diligent after we tell them to do this instead of that. Because, that’s what kid really is! All they have in mind are play, fun, toys, kiddies stuff etc. Kids can be frustrating, in fact most of my friends in my neighborhood are children!

    August 30, 2017 at 11:55 am
    • Reply Rose Angelie

      You’re right! How did I miss to realize that? LOL
      Kidding aside, having children around is amazing! Thanks for dropping by, Rafi! 🙂

      August 30, 2017 at 12:31 pm
  • Reply Sahar

    I don’t think your sentiments are anything to be ashamed of and i wish more parents would admit and share the frustrations they encounter! Honestly Rose O think that you are an excellent Mom **because** you screamed at and ignored your kids. I’m not saying you should do this all the time But rather that its ok it happened, it means you are trying really hard, and that you are clear sighted about how hard it is and not cocooning yourself in a thick web of denial that will keep you from doing your best. You’re awesome, just keep going. I’m sure the kids won’t remember the screaming but will remember all kinds of lovely details of the awesome things their mom did for them. You got this!!!!

    August 30, 2017 at 11:56 pm
    • Reply Rose Angelie

      Oh, thank you for sharing, Sahar! I smiled all the way through reading your comment. 🙂 and honestly, it inspired me not just to handle things better but to acknowledge the flaws that come with our own parenting. I wish I can tap “heart” on your comment instead of just a “like” haha thank you! <3

      August 31, 2017 at 12:11 am
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